I feel like loss. I feel like loneliness. I feel like heartbreak. I feel like Death. Suddenly, in fifteen minutes, everything changes. Moving too fast to be real. I don’t know why, I don’t know how. I only have a vague idea of what. And it hurts. It hurts like the pain of eternal blackness. A scorching fire that threatens to consume my very sanity. A fire that beckons me to close my eyes and die. I don’t want this. I beg it to leave, but the monster does not listen. It only exists to destroy. I thought he was gone, but nay. He will never leave me. The one sure thing in life is that all will pass me. Nothing can last? Why not? Why can’t the good stay, and the bad leave. Why does it inevitably lead to failure and pain. I don’t want this pain. I don’t want the suffocation of loneliness anymore. I thought I had found a way to beat all of the darkness which surrounded me. But, now it all seems in vain. It’s not supposed to be like this.