One hundred entries in my Tabbies. This means one of two things. Either I have a lot to say, or I am the biggest loser of all history. For the sake of my self-esteem, I’m gonna go with the first one. So, I decided that I will take this opportunity to reflect on recent events in my life. Why? Because I can. Shut up.

First, I think that I am finally beginning to enter the process of grieving for Dad. It’s been over a year, it’s long overdue. Still, his death almost destroyed all I believe in. But, I feel that I’m not supposed to spend years dwelling on it, and it’s time to try to move on. I can’t hide behind the pain anymore. Time to be a man.

Yeah, I moved out of the apartment and now I’m at Pitt. I feel that it was a good move. I think that I was really getting tired of living in the apartment. Not that it was terrible or anything, but I really wasn’t enjoying my last few months there. It was a good time to leave. Plus, now I can work on being a director. Which is what I will be. No question. I’m slowly yet surely making new friends. You know me though, I’m not the most social person to ever live. But, one slowly gets over such things. And I am working on it. I really am. But inertia has a lot to say, so getting started is the hardest.

Uh, Nikki and I are currently not dating. I really don’t know what to say about that.

I game too much.


Wait, what am I saying?
Currently feeling: content
Posted by Narzack on October 2, 2003 at 12:44 AM | 7 Dropkicked

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Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 10:05 AM
I lost my dad when I was six and it took me until I was 15 to start grieving, and until recently to start grieving PROPERLY. I'm glad to hear you're doing a good deal better than that.

And game too much? Who IS this?
Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 12:52 PM
Well, I realized the error of my ways, and promptly launched into a wicked round of Desert Combat.
Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 01:20 AM
I wish you the best of luck man, things will turn around. I lost my dad about a year and a half ago, and we were very close. The process of grieving was, and still somewhat is strange, and had me acting very differently for quite a while. But, as it goes by, it gets a little better all the time, and you see things more clearly and how they should be dealt with. Good luck to you with directing, and girls are an everlasting pain in the ass.
Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 08:55 PM
Hey now... we're not ALL that bad....
Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 10:30 PM
I must agree with him. Of all the things in the world, girls are the most frustrating.
Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 08:57 PM
no, perhaps not, but most of the ones I know are, and It makes me insane.
Comment posted on October 2nd, 2003 at 01:21 AM
Thanks, guy. Looks like you know how things in life are.