October 24, 2003
If This Is What You Wanted, Why Are You So Miserable?
I'm in love with this notion of hate. So willing to burn, so ready to scream.
She thinks this is easy for me. She thinks I do this for another, but I do it for me. I wish I could make things the way they were. But I've done too much, gone too far, loved too little.
Nikki and I had been through some real bad stuff. She'd been there for me through all of it. She had my dreamgirl hair. But, there's always been Something Wrong with me. My eventual destruction. White faces in the night. They will come back. This time, I won't have anyone to make them go away. No more warm beds, no more soft touches. The only kiss left for me is that of Judas.
The bottom line? I'd be better off with her. She'd be better off without me.
It's never easy.
She thinks this is easy for me. She thinks I do this for another, but I do it for me. I wish I could make things the way they were. But I've done too much, gone too far, loved too little.
Nikki and I had been through some real bad stuff. She'd been there for me through all of it. She had my dreamgirl hair. But, there's always been Something Wrong with me. My eventual destruction. White faces in the night. They will come back. This time, I won't have anyone to make them go away. No more warm beds, no more soft touches. The only kiss left for me is that of Judas.
The bottom line? I'd be better off with her. She'd be better off without me.
It's never easy.
Posted by Narzack on October 24, 2003 at 01:07 PM | 2 Dropkicked