Kyle, I couldn't have said it better myself. Honestly, I don't think anyone who even attempts to philosophize on a daily basis can ever feel as though they belong. I've felt lost for as long as I can remember. I used to think that it was because I was away at college, and so I hurried up so I could come back, but now I'm here and it's the same feelings of lose. So I guess we just gotta make the best of it. I mean, I think you're right JBird--life IS the moments. Go to Fox's and eat 30$ worth of pizza and wings--then go sneak into the church and watch The Mummy. Go to the cafe that's no longer there and stand where the couch used to be, just outside the bathroom, where we all sat how many years ago? 5? 6? for your 16th birthday. Remember the lock-ins, the football on Sunday afternoons when it was so cold you could hardly catch the ball if you didn't have on gloves. Remember the summer-of 99. 'cuz I haven't forgotten. It's the moments that make us who we are, the times when we can't explain what's happening but can remember that yes, we are here, and yes, we are existing in this realm, on this mortal coil. Drive in your car with all the windows down and the AC on-in January. Remember the pool hall. Remember the bowling alley. Remember being thrown up in the air by all these football players, and you'd always land on your two feet. Remember there are always people watching you, looking up to you. I didn't land on my feet, remember? They had to pick me up and carry me to my car. You always made it look so easy, so together. And so everything's changed. So make new moments. Create new summers, new games to take the place of tennis ball wars. We couldn't have expected it to last forever, could we? Build on that. And take comfort in the fact that none of us belong anywhere anymore. We can't fit into these stupid preconceived people-molds, and so they shun us, leaving us bleeding and alone, until we take our loneliness and pain and do something about it, create something, write something, make a difference. You are one of these people, who will be pressed and squeezed until the greatness is all that is left in you and you have no room but to be who you are completely. You will change things. You will be great. It just takes this added dimension of depth from loneliness that you feel now. It will just add that much more depth to you later. That much more compassion. That much more understanding--although I find you as one of the most understanding people that I know.