This entry is an answer to a comment on a previous entry. I was asked which days I would like to repeat. I thought long and hard about this, and I have my answers.

It's a tossup between the days I would like to relive. I'd either pick the day Dad and I went to the airshow, or the entire week we were in San Diego. My old man and I spent an entire week in his hometown, and I got to meet his best friend, and see where he grew up and it was great. And the airshow was just so awesome. He and I got our picture taken in a Mustang. And we got to see the Blue Angels. That was just so great.

A day that I would like to relive, so I could change something would be the day Dad died. There were so many things I needed to tell him, and everytime I tried, the words just failed. I never got to tell him how sorry I was for being so stupid and selfish. I didn't get to tell him how much I wished that I would have let him read my writing. Just too many words, too little time. I miss him.

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Posted by Narzack on February 22, 2005 at 01:01 AM | 2 Dropkicked

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Comment posted on February 22nd, 2005 at 02:57 PM
I don't think anyone who has lost a loved one has ever told them all they meant to. That reminded me of one the last things I said to my dad before he died.

One of my friends fathers had just passed the week before we were having the conversation, and he had died of causes related to alcoholism. My father was an alcoholic too, and he asked me if all I had been doing for him lately was making me lose my respect(or something to that effect) for him. I told him no, I didn't hold any of it against him. But, he had to promise not to pull the same shit my friends father had, and go and die on me. He said he wouldn't. heh, a few days later...

sorry, never told anyone that little snippet before, just seemed to be a good time to mention it.
Comment posted on February 23rd, 2005 at 01:27 AM
I understand. Sometimes, it feels like life is just a series of regrets.