Entries for May, 2009

"A hero kills people. People that wish him harm. A hero is part human, part supernatural. A hero is born out of a childhood trauma or out of a disaster and must be avenged."
"You're thinking of a superhero."
"We all have a hero in our heart."

Posted by Narzack on May 4, 2009 at 09:47 PM | 1 Dropkicked







Currently feeling: excited
Posted by Narzack on May 6, 2009 at 10:28 AM | 1 Dropkicked

            Three weeks.  Three weeks since Kellin had seen his mother, his town.  Three weeks since the rabid mob stormed his house, flinging him into the street and hurling stones and curses.  Murderer, they’d called him.  Killer, Rapist, Monster.  Forced to leave, never to come back. They’d beaten his mother unconscious, threatened to kill her if he ever came back.


            He couldn’t even say goodbye.


            Since then, it’d been three weeks of hardship, of starvation and wandering.  Ailish wasn’t there to save him; Maris wasn’t there to guide him.  Alone.  Completely, totally, eternally alone. 


            He followed a stream, walking as long as his legs held out, sleeping when he could fight slumber no longer.  Things were no better in his dreams.  Nightmares, really.  Nightmares that reached into the day.  For Kellin, there was no escape. 


            It was in this wretched state, that someone found him.

Currently listening to: Corrosion- Decoded Feedback
Currently reading: Bradbury Speaks- Ray Bradbury
Currently watching: The Cosby Show Season 2
Currently feeling: listless
Posted by Narzack on May 14, 2009 at 04:07 PM | Get some!

Holy crap, 3D Realms shut down?  Is this a joke?


I feel hollow inside.

Currently feeling: stunned
Posted by Narzack on May 14, 2009 at 04:24 PM | Get some!

For realsies, I can't be the only who is gutted by this news, surely? 




It's weird, how bummed out I am.  I'll never see Duke Nukem Forever.  It's sorta like that feeling we all got when we found out Heath Ledger died, and then saw his amazing performance as the joker.


Actually, my level of disappointment is rather embarassing.  I think I'll shut up, now.

Currently watching: Doug
Currently feeling: Soldiering On
Posted by Narzack on May 16, 2009 at 11:14 AM | Get some!

We all want to be, and like to think that we're Eric Rivers. 


But, I guess I'm just Matt Jensen. 


Hey, it's gotta be somebody.

Currently feeling: depressed
Posted by Narzack on May 19, 2009 at 07:27 PM | Get some!

What is going on with this world?  First, no Duke and now, ARCHIE IS GETTING MARRIED!?!?!?!?!?


We are living in the End Times, folks.  The End Times

Currently reading: Redemption Ark- Alastair Reynolds
Currently feeling: shocked
Posted by Narzack on May 21, 2009 at 11:39 AM | Get some!

Full article here.


"Despite rumors and statements to the contrary, 3D Realms (3DR) has not closed and is not closing. 3DR retains ownership of the Duke Nukem franchise. Due to lack of funding, however, we are saddened to confirm that we let the Duke Nukem Forever (DNF) development team go on May 6th, while we regroup as a company. While 3DR is a much smaller studio now, we will continue to operate as a company and continue to license and co-create games based upon the Duke Nukem franchise. "


Does this mean that there is a small glimmer of hope?

Currently feeling: hopeful
Posted by Narzack on May 21, 2009 at 09:39 PM | Get some!

I mostly embarrass the hell out of myself.  Mostly.

Currently feeling: ashamed
Posted by Narzack on May 22, 2009 at 12:28 PM | Get some!

Today, I came across this article.  Seems interesting, at first.  But, as I read more, I came a few unpleasant conclusions.


Well, I guess they're not really conclusions so much as just thoughts on the subject.  Anyway.


My first thought is really bumming me out.  For my whole entire life, I've proudly considered myself a nerd.  And not one of those stupid, trendy nerds from TV or movies, like The Big Bang Theory.  Holy crap, I hate that show.  No, I mean a real, honest to goodness nerd.  Geek, dork, dweeb, loser kinda nerd.  Videogames, computers, technology, science fiction, cartoons, writing, anime, role-playing games.  All the good stuff.  And, again, to be honest, I've carried that badge with serious pride.  Because being a nerd wasn't cool.  It wasn't acceptable, and the friends I made a nerd were fast friends, we weren't a couple popular guys hanging out because our girlfriends were both cheerleaders, that kind stuff.  We treasured brains above popularity and muscles.  We were single and perversely proud of it.

Obviously, too, I'm against this sudden geek chic movement.  I guess that makes an arrogant elitist.  So be it.

ANYWAY, back to the subject at hand.   As I read through this article, I found myself identifying less and less with the nerd being described.  I don't really think like that, at all.  It all seemed foreign to me.  And, that is kind of depressing.  Does this mean I'm not really a nerd at all?  Because I don't think in projects and goals and puzzles and systems and am not $%&!ing funny, like the article suggests? 

And my second thought is sort of back to the geek chic thing.  It really frustrates me when nerds are treated like this fascinating creature to be studied.  Like, holy crap, nerds are amazing.  When you get one, your life will be complete and awesome and they are the best, just underrated!  That's not the case.  I'm having trouble articulating what I'm trying to say.  It's just that nerds have been put on this weirdo pedestal, like cute, neato pets or something. 

I don't know.  Like I said, I can't quite figure out how to say what I mean. 



  • I worry that I can no longer label myself a nerd.
  • Nerds are nothing like they way they are portrayed on television.
  • Geek chic is dumb.
  • Nerds are as human as everyone else.
  • Nerds are not pets


Anyone else understand what I'm getting at?


Currently listening to: Breathe Life- Killswitch Engage
Currently reading: Moonraker- Ian Fleming
Currently watching: King of the Hill Season Four
Currently feeling: morose
Posted by Narzack on May 22, 2009 at 05:51 PM | Get some!

Wow, the new Team Fortress 2 video, Meet The Spy, is really, really good.

Posted by Narzack on May 24, 2009 at 03:43 PM | Get some!
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