You know, I think that this angry, hateful Narzack is starting to wear me out again. It's so tiring to have to conjure up the energy and the rage to be constantly pissed. There was a time not long ago, where I realized that hating everything all the time was really tearing me up inside. But of course, I started to be angry Narzack again. *sigh* I think that I don't have the energy to be that angry all the time. I think. . .it's time to try something new. And to this end, I've come up with a few ideas.

Think back, if you will, to your childhood. I'm sure that once or twice, after you got in trouble, one of your parents would say, "Do you want something to cry about? I'll give you something to cry about." I got in trouble alot when I was a kid, so I heard that quite a bit. This got me to thinking. When you're happy, or laughing, why doesn't anyone say anything like that?

For instance, "Why are you smiling? I'll give you something to smile about! You are without a doubt, the most talented artist that I have ever met." Naturally, that can be adapted for any situation. Maybe instead of a talented artist, you can tell them they are one of the funniest people you've ever met. And so on, I think you get the idea.

Perhaps, this is something that I can start doing. I'm pretty sure that it would shock some people. Maybe instead of being so angry all the time, I can start trying to make someone smile, once a day. Not with a sick joke or an amusing insult, but with a real, geniune compliment. Perhaps, I could cause a real moment of joy in someone's life. You know what? I'm going to give it a try. Who knows, maybe if you see me walking down the street with a smile instead of a scowl, you'll remember that life really is beautiful. It really is a gift.


I hope this all made sense to you.